Wednesday, November 22, 2006
in the midst of the storm, I will be with you.
well...having a pretty sucky day. i dont know. im stressed i guess. sorta. argghhhhhh..
firstly. in the mornin. as i stepped off the curb to get into the car. i fell into the drain. okay. not fell. i stepped into the drain. still. i got a cut. aah. i havent gotten cuts in a while. sucks...
n met ingrid today. i dont know what to say man. it was really sucky. cuz its not as if i din put effort into the board you know. i mean. i actually did it consistently n yet. i failed. i cant stand it. i know we have a chance to redo it but.....its like xing tong. put effort in it then....its like u dont even get a freaking pass. whatever. at least shes giving us ample time to do it. but seriously. how were we to know we had to do a steoyboard n whatever. aaaargh. i jus feel stressed. i know i shouldnt think about it first. get through inec first. argh. jus no mood to do work since everything around me seems to be....disintegrating. i hate it how ur life seems to go so well n happy n then all of a sudden. everything that can go wrong goes wrong AT THE SAME TIME. then ur like. crap. i dont know what to do. dont know what to focus on. nvm. most of you dont know what im talkin about.
n so irritating. today. on the bus. i was sittin on the seats which are placed sideways. near the front of the bus. n these guys were standin in front of me. n i was mindin my own business when suddenly this guy takes out his hp n like holds it high above his head, tryin to take something. n i was like okkkayy. but nvm. cuz i thought he was takin something outside or like some sign at the top of the bus....n i din really bother. then they were all laughin. n passing the hp around n i kinda saw the pic n it was like a picture of me la. i cant stand people like that. esp immature guys. come on man. ur in poly already n u still want to do these kind of lame things. like what the hell. irritating. so annoyin man. these kind of pple. i dont even know what they were taking but i dont care. jus wished pple like that would grow up. no respect man. like doin it in front of you. like right to ur face. made my bad day worse.
oh yes. n i would like to dedicate this part of my blog to jessie. :) yes you!
its jus that i was havin a crappy enough day...n remember last time u gave me that letter. well. i know it was a long time..maybe 2 weeks. but i somehow felt like. i shouldnt read the letter until the right time...n so i din read it. but today i felt like i should read it n so...thanks for the encouragement. yes. i know that you will be there for me. n God will help me through anything m i need not worry. but today. when i read the letter. it was exactly what i wanted to hear. n i thank God for someone like you. :) love you. n i shall not worry about projects or whatever.
thanks anyway.
all i want to do is be a kid again, where i sled down the grassy hill n play stupid nonsensical games.
*brenda*
caught some stars @
*2:07 PM*
